Conversation with the Samaritans continues
Re: Re: Dear Jo Yahoo/Sent Shantanu Panigrahi <firstname.lastname@example.org> To:Sheffield Road Sun, 9 Oct at 08:12 Dear Jo I was in two minds last night as to whether I should return to my senses from the Self mode of operation to concentrate on earning a good living, to deal with developments in material advantage perspective, or whether I should just carry on living as I have learnt to live, which is to truth exposure to myself always. This morning on a Sunday with no official business taking place I decided to respond to each and every email that comes to me in the most nonchalant, spontaneous and unpremeditated manner possible with no assumptions, no objectives, no plans, no aims, no wishes, no expectations, no anticipations, and no hopes or desires, so as to continue to relinquish the ego. I have no legacy, nothing of substance that I have achieved even after writing my autobiography of 82 Sections on 'The Allurement of Reality' that was brought on by what I considered was an awakening from God, to explore Reality ang like the Star Trek series said to explore strange new worlds and boldly go where no man has ever been. It has been a personal journey into truth and nothing more. All my emails and correspondence should be taken with a pinch of salt that these were part of a dharmayudha that I was fighting to protect myself from those who have harassed me on the internet and to save my reputation in the material world. I do not entertain such sentiments: I just write what comes to my mind and through that I find my navigatory path into the future that awaits me as my destination.
I have decided in discussions with my wife that I must spend time in and around the house and not go for a part-time job anywhere until her health problems are better understood by the Orthopaedic doctors in the National Health Service and some hope of ever getting back to normal comes about from the treatment that she receives. Apart from that there is nothing further to report because Kent Police has still not contacted me on the disposal of the arrest matter of 16 September 2021/24November 2021, and there is no word on the legal challenges that I initiated from the Judicial authorities. I have done the right thing and it is up to the State authorities to decide on my fate. While it may appear that I have been active fighting for a just cause, there is nothing just in trying to get my £50,000 severance pay from the University of Greenwich 24 years after the incident. They will challenge any such proceedings in legal processes. Every one has the right to decide. I have done what was required of me to play a constructive role in the society of the United Kingdom with my litigations. That is all that matters to me. My conscience is clear that I have done nothing wrong or harmed anyone else in the process of the truth-seeking that I embarked on follwowing my awakening in 1997/1998. The jury is still out on whether I am mentally disordered with paranoid schizophrenia and persistent delusional disorders or indeed Biplolar with delusions as this is the crucial bit of news that I need and the State needs too in deciding what happens next. I think you will agree with this assessment. Hope to continue this conversation with you. Shantanu Re: Re: Dear Jo Yahoo/ Inbox email@example.com To: firstname.lastname@example.org Sat, 8 Oct at 21:55 Dear Shantanu I'm sorry to hear that these issues are still not resolved, though you did speak about having a job interview with Sainsburys on 10th October. I do hope this goes well for you. Do you think this will be a step forward for you? Please do take care. We care about you and what happens to you. Jo -------------------------------------------------------- You can call Samaritans free on 116 123 day or night, 365 days a year, from any phone in the UK or Republic of Ireland. A trained volunteer will answer the phone as soon as they can. When you email us, we aim to respond within 24 hours. This means it will usually be several hours before someone reads your email. If you need urgent support, we can respond more quickly if you call. You can find more information about Samaritans, including other ways to contact, online self-help and more about the email service at https://www.samaritans.org/. Our privacy statement is here: https://www.samaritans.org/privacy-statement/. Samaritans registered Charity Number 219432 (England & Wales) and SC040604 in Scotland.