Depression Kicking In
from: Shantanu Panigrahi <email@example.com>
date: 31 Aug 2023, 20:49
subject: Depression Kicking In
Thank you for your email today 31 Aug 2023, 16:07 pm. It was heartwarming.
My mind is in depression knowing what I am up against in the Conspiracy of a Hate Crime that has challenged me for decades. At times I had felt suicidal, then some inspiration came that I must continue talking to my persecutors, national and international so responded to a deceitful email that came from Kent Police on my 6 arrests and with being on Bail the conditions of which were unjust and intolerable.
There was a process of Appeal against Kent Police's decisions to the Police and Crime Commissioner which I required immediate acknowledgement of from the Professional Standards Department or the Commissioner himself and I waited until now for any such information: in vain.
Further, North Kent Magistrates Court is not informing me of what I am required to defend against on the summons referral to Court and when this should be held. Kent Police and the Court will work this out amongst themselves, my mind tells me. So we will just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings, and the next day and the day after that etc.
My antidepressant medication do not help anymore and I will contact the Surgery tomorrow to see if I can have the medication reviewed and have an updated Care Plan from Britton House.
You asked how strong the depression and suicidal thoughts have been lately, and I have to say that uncertainties of living under a highly secretive State Establishment here in the United Kingdom make me very nervous and suicidal. But I have not tried to commit suicide knowing that my family needs me. Call it our Hindu culture of dharma or just a decision that some better day might come along and save me from the relentless persecution by the State authorities.
I cannot abandon truth and I always write back acknowledging all the emails although do not answer the phone unless a Voicemail is left for there are scoundrels who Spam me with phone calls to my Mobile phone as a trolling exercise on behalf of the State which gives them pleasure that they always have means to torment me.
May be when we are on holiday in Turkey from 14 September 2023 to 22 September 2023; and this winter in India for which the tickets are not yet booked, I will be free from the complexities of having to cope with life as an immigrant that no British person understands or even tries to understand. The see Hindu dharma as a threat to Christianity and the Monarch is the Head of the Anglican church who sees it as a requirement of his role that there are no alien influences in the culture of the United Kingdom.
These are just some of the thoughts currently.
Thank you for being a listening ear.
Dr Shantanu Panigrahi
3 Hoath Lane
Kent ME8 0SL