I would have to give the benefit of the doubt that all my mental experiences were real for the writings withstood the test of time and I survived after horrendous tyrannical persecution on me from within the State of the United Kingdom and beyond. No human being could have withstood what I have done and still hold his head held high to have protected his reputation. I declared who I was which angered them so much that they intensified their harassment on me through all kind of means. Yet I had the mental faculties necessary to deal with it will and come out with 12 books to narrate the persecution that I suffered over the past 24 years. I gave the bastards as good as I got, verbally, whilst safeguarding my position continuously through this period. All employment opportunities and State benefits were denied to me, so I formed my own Company, The Conservative Libertarian Publications Limited through which I published my books, and this will go on for the world to read about and through the exclusive sales arrangement now with Lulu Publishing for me to derive an income to supplement my £1000 per month occupational pension accrued from the 18 years that I worked in the Natural Resources Institute when in the Civil Services and subsequently when it was privatised to the University of Greenwich. Additionally, my websites will remain on line indefinitely if there is sufficient income from the Sales of the books to add to my savings, to be a thorn in the backside of the State authorities as revenge for the State-organised persecution on me.
I have a reasonably good family life that they tried to shatter with criminal anonymous emails to my wife and me. They are now silent in their cubby holes on this Saturday the 9th of October 2021.
I have started this book just as a strategy to publish further developments, nothing more for the more I think of this I did have God to have come to my rescue as a Sadhguru and Durga Devi as the goddess to tear apart the persecutors to smithereens.
So it is unsustainable to live now without God in vyavaharika or the conception fails to be coherent in Vishista-advaita Vedanta, that I founded and not withstanding the secularity of the revised Constitution that I put forward in my website this morning for material expediency. I have no interest in pursuing that agenda now that no emails have come today in response. I suspected that the delay in Ajay Attra replying to my initial WhatsApp text might be due to interference from the State directly or through the interactions of sattvic, rajasic and tamasic guna consciousness in the Brahma-Nature conception hypothesised by me as the basis of Vishista-advaita Vedanta, and withdrew my request today to him to fetch me a blessed or unblessed janeo from a priest in Plumstead. It was saying goodbye to him for no one that I asked him to get to sign my 38 Degrees petition on Hinduism in the United Kingdom had signed so this avenue for material progress here in the United Kingdom is closed.
The most important objective now is to survive and be at a standstill, biding my time, and just continuing writing my autobiography through this book that will be a dossier until I am approached by the State authorities. All the books so far published under the theme ‘The Allurement of Reality’ are really chapters to be visited and revisited as progress is made towards the future as I should remain nonchalant, spontaneous and unpremeditated in my actions, with problems at home to negotiate. as if I am still performing sanatan dharma. Noting will be published in the websites. Everything will be written in this book: no daily bulletins in the website as I had been doing for the world has ignored me. So be it. I do not need to tell the world anything more. I will retitle this book in due course from ‘In Maya’ (Illusion) to just ‘Sri Krishna’s Maya’. I have said it before that I am a Mayavadi and it remains so this evening.
The thought that just occurred in my mind is that I am Sri Krishna Sadhguru’s purnavatar while Rashmi is Durga Devi’s purnaavatar. That is the only explanation of how we could remain together to achieve so much together. She protected me from the rakshases in steadfastly refusing to let me come off the mental health medications as a medical cover for any legal procedures that the State had long been contemplating in terms of bringing me to Trial through concocted evidence engineered by the madarchods, while I sought for my destiny to try and understand Reality and expose the pig-shit humanimals through legal procedures of litigation and criminal private prosecution in the Courts.
Who is to judge, no one. It is all conjecture. There is no truth that I know of and I have been chasing dreams, visions and interpreted prophesies for 24 years, wrote 12 books this on accumulated evidence and the result is that they were all rantings of a deluded mind. Being a Mayavadi of Sri Krishna, soldier of Allah, disciple of Jesus, follower of Moses, etc who do we worship. All so-called truths need to be assessed for reality. But we humans are not capable of doing that, so what we come up with is the illusion. Who knows. The only thing we can do is see this world and not chase dreams for that leads to the worst of all delusions, the delusions of grandeur that one has knowledge.